So often I am asked how I feel about adding another boy to the family. Ask and you shall receive... I was thrilled when we found out that baby #2 was a boy, simply thrilled! I love finding out the gender early, because you get to know just a bit more about that baby growing inside of you. That baby whose kicks you are already feeling, whom you are already bonding with. Learning that Liam would have a baby brother was a special moment! Brothers!!! I can't wait to see that special bond develop! I think I surprised many of my friends & family when I didn't seem the least bit disappointed or upset about having another boy. Interestingly, when I was planning dreaming out my life at the young age of 18, I had always wanted three kids. Two boys, and then a girl. So as of right now, I guess I'm right on track for that!
Now having said all this, you should all know that I NEED a girl! I ache for a girl. Swoon after a girl. I often wonder what a little girl of mine would look like... Would she have blond curls & blue eyes like Liam? Would she look just like me? My mom & I are as close as mother/daughter could possibly be, so I want to have that relationship again, except in the new role as mother!
I want everything that comes with having a girl! I want the tea parties & the dress up days. I want shopping trips & lunch dates. I want to brush her hair out after a long day and help her relax. I want to paint our nails together. I want to wipe away her tears after she loses her first boyfriend, her first love. I want to help her pick out a prom dress. I want to help her plan her wedding. I also want Liam & Finn to have a sister. I want them to grow up with someone to protect. I want them to learn from her. I want the opportunity to raise both boys & girls.
Conor & I are unsure of when our family may be complete. We're taking it one new baby at a time. Two kids may be the perfect fit for us. Or perhaps once Finn is toddling around, we'll want to add another little one. I really want our decision about whether or not have baby #3 not be influenced by just wanting to try for a girl. I love my little Liam and feel like I have this whole "boy mom" thing down pretty well. I know all my construction equipment & various types of trains. I am a mother of boys, and I'm going to own it!
However, every so often those girl emotions hit me..the reality that I may never have a girl, and it overwhelms me. But it's not something to worry about today. Today I have thee most adorable 2 year old boy who loves me fiercely. He's inquisitive, busy, & the perfect amount of gentle & sensitive. I am enjoying every last day that it is just the two of us. The last days that he will be my only boy. Although this other baby boy growing in my tummy already has my heart too, and I am just dying to meet him!
Life is sweet, my family is perfect, & I am happy.
Today I celebrate all the good!
there will come a tomorrow when I'm welcoming a baby girl into the world!